1.03.2017

A New Year A New Life!



Happy New Year! 
I struggle to use the explanation point on those words today, but I do believe it can only get better! 
Those of you who've been following me for awhile know how difficult this last year has been for me. My mom being diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer, my ex husband cheating on me and leaving me for the woman, moving to a new place and starting completely over. 
Painting should be the first thing on my mind for therapy through this, but I have found it extremely difficult to pick up a paint brush. It's been about two months now since I've painted. I used to do it everyday as it's my source of income and pleasure, but I am so uninspired lately. There's a little more going on with hormones and I think I may be depressed. I have no excuse though, and need to bounce back like I always have, but this time it feels different. It may be because my daughter is on her own, which means I am too. It's hard to go from being the mom to (what feels like) being the child. 
I was always the strong one through very difficult times that should make this seem like nothing. I hope this year is better...it has to be. 
The positive things are my mom is doing great and everyone in my family is healthy! I live in a beautiful place now and although the sun isn't shining now, it's not snowing! I'm back in school earning my BA and finally passed my algebra class with a B! I have my whole life ahead of me and can choose for it to be whatever I want it to be without being held back by someone who doesn't want the same. I like being on my own again! It's been 16 years too long.

So that's what I've been up to. How about you? Any good New Year's Resolutions? 




3 comments:

R's Rue said...

God Bless

Sheila said...

Well, congratulations on good health all around! You are not alone Jen. I have heard the same feelings from so many. I myself am still climbing my way out of a sort of, black hole. Hang in there, keep your chin up, and keep hope alive :)
Wish I had wiser words. Will be glad to see you painting again :)

Jennifer Beaudet said...

Hi Sheila! Happy New Year! I'm glad to hear you are on your way up and encouraged by your words! Thanks so much for your support! I'm going to try to paint today. Jen:)